Ashley Cain reassures concerned fans he won’t take his own life and vows to stay strong for daughter Azaylia

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Ashley Cain has reassured concerned fans that he won’t take his own life after a tearful string of videos.

The Ex On The Beach star became emotional on Instagram last night, as he opened up about the devastating moment daughter Azaylia died in his arms in April.

The videos left some worried for his mental health – something he addressed in another upload on his story.

‘I know I got my feelings out a bit tonight but I want everyone to know they don’t need to worry about me,’ he vowed. ‘My daughter fought so hard for her life I would never ever give mine up. 

‘I’m dedicating the rest of my life to fighting to set up this charity and to ensure that other families and children don’t have to fight as hard as we did.

‘If I can make a little bit of a difference that’s what I want to do. I will go to the lengths of every corner of the Earth to do that and to honour my daughter’s name.

‘I will keep on going and keep on going until I’ve done all I can do.’

Azaylia tragically died earlier this year, following a battle with acute myeloid leukaemia – a rare condition she was diagnosed with when she was eight-weeks-old.

Her parents keeping fans updated on her health issues throughout, but sadly her condition had deteriorated before she was able to get access to treatment in Singapore.

Following her death, Ashley and girlfriend Safiyya laid her to rest in an emotional funeral last month, and have been keeping her memory alive on social media ever since.

Ashley fought tears as he visited her grave yesterday evening, sharing his heartache with fans.

‘When everything in my life felt bad I used to see her face. It made everything better. Now I can never do that again,’ he said.

‘Now I’ve got to live with that for the rest of my life.

‘Obviously I miss her and I love her and that’s something I can deal with. What hurts me the most is that eight months of her life were eight months of pain, wires in her chest, wires down her nose, her life spent in a f**king hospital room, having chemotherapy, operations every day.

‘Not outside walking, not seeing her family, in a hospital room going through procedures. Even though she didn’t show it, I know she was going through pain. I’ve got to live haunted by the fact that my daughter passed away in my arms as I was counting her breaths.

‘I feel for that little girl so much.’

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