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Ashley Cain says Azaylia sent him a sign that ‘she’s okay’
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Ashley Cain is keeping baby Azaylia’s legacy alive as he shared the sign he believed his daughter gave him after he asked her to tell him she was ‘okay’.
The Ex On The Beach star’s baby daughter died in April aged eight months following a battle with a rare and aggressive form of leukaemia.
Sharing a photo of a beautiful sunset on Thursday evening, Ashley said: ‘Azaylia was with us tonight.’
The baby has been remembered by the colour orange, with Ashley and his partner Safiyya Vorajee sporting the hue whenever needed – and the bright orange sky clearly moved the reailty star this week.
He went on: ‘Can you see how bright that sky is? It’s amazing. Let’s go champ. I love you baby.’
Ashley added on his Instagram: ‘I asked you to show me a sign to show me you’re OK, a sign to give me strength and you couldn’t have given me a more beautiful one.’
Visiting Azaylia’s grave, which was adorned with lanterns, flowers and stuffed toys, the grieving dad insisted he would make his late daughter proud.
In an emotional clip, Ashley said: ‘I haven’t spoke much recently as it’s been quite difficult and in a lot of cases there, isn’t much to say.
‘One thing that’s helped my process is the fact we can’t change anything, we can’t bring those loved ones back.
‘But one thing we can do while on this earth is stand up and make them proud. If you’re struggling, find yourself lost, you’re struggling for purpose…
‘Understand your purpose is making those loved ones proud because rest assured they are watching down on you from heaven .
‘As I know my daughter is watching down on me. And while I’m here, I’m going to make her proud until the day I join her again in heaven.
‘Make your loved ones proud people.’
Ashley recently opened up about the pain of his daughter dying in his arms, as he reflected on losing his baby girl and explained that he’s haunted by the loss every single day.
He fought tears as he said: ‘When everything in my life felt bad I used to see her face. It made everything better. Now I can never do that again.
‘Now I’ve got to live with that for the rest of my life.
‘Obviously I miss her and I love her and that’s something I can deal with. What hurts me the most is that eight months of her life were eight months of pain, wires in her chest, wires down her nose, her life spent in a f**king hospital room, having chemotherapy, operations every day.
‘Not outside walking, not seeing her family, in a hospital room going through procedures. Even though she didn’t show it, I know she was going through pain. I’ve got to live haunted by the fact that my daughter passed away in my arms as I was counting her breaths.
‘I feel for that little girl so much.’
