Cara Delevingne felt suicidal due to internalised homophobia: ‘I thought I was abnormal’-Alistair McGeorge-Entertainment – Metro

Cara Delevingne was to help people in a similar situation (Picture: Valerie Macon/AFP/Getty)

Cara Delevingne has revealed how her struggles with her sexuality left her feeling suicidal.

The 30-year-old model-and-actress – who identifies as queer and gender fluid – worried she was ‘abnormal’ when she was questioning her own identity but is ‘so glad’ she didn’t take her own life because she’s now in a position to help and support other young people who are in the same state of confusion as she was.

She said: ‘I couldn’t talk to anyone about it. I had a lot of internalised homophobia and shame. I thought that I was abnormal.

‘I thought about ending my life, like I had multiple times, and I’m so glad I didn’t because if I can help any other kid that means the world to me. It means the world to that little queer kid I was. Or I am.’

Cara noted now she’s ‘happier’ than she’s ‘ever been’, and wants to really help people in a similar position.

‘I feel really, really proud of what we created. I know I shouldn’t feel shame but I truly believe there are souls like me all over the world,’ she said during her new documentary Planet Sex with Cara Delevingne.

Cara has been open about her sexuality (Picture: David Fisher/REX/Shutterstock)

The Paper Towns star previously declared herself to be bisexual, and then pansexual, but now identifies as queer.

She added: ‘I kind of started as bisexual, and then I was pansexual. I felt like “I don’t know what letter I am!” Queer felt fluid and free.

Cara doesn’t want to ‘sit in a box’ (Picture: Todd Owyoung/NBC/NBCU Photo Bank via Getty Images)

‘It didn’t put too much pressure on anything I was deciding to be… Sexuality is definitely a spectrum, and I feel like mine wavers, but I’m definitely more on the side of women. I like having sex with men, I just don’t date them.’

While Cara is ‘proud to be a woman’, she doesn’t want to ‘sit in a box’ and admitted she enjoys ‘dressing up as a man and being a “he”‘ too.

She said on the show: ‘I am a “she” right now. But I also like dressing up as a man and being a “he”. You don’t have to put so much pressure on yourself about what you are, who you are.

‘Whether it’s masculine and feminine, it’s just who I am… The constructs and binaries that are given are stupid. I’m proud to be a woman, but I don’t have to sit in a box.

‘I’m definitely genderfluid. I love playing with what we’ve been given as those gender constructs. Being super femme, being super masc, mixing it all up in one big cauldron.’

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