Freddy Brazier ‘uncomfortable’ filming Celebrity Race Across The World during ‘significant’ Jade Goody moment-Ruth Lawes-Entertainment – Metro

Freddy Brazier struggled to fight back the tears as he remembered his mum Jade Goody on Celebrity Race Across The World (Picture: BBC One/Celebrity Race Across the World)

Jeff Brazier has detailed a ‘difficult day’ with his son Freddy Brazier on Celebrity Race Across The World as they commemorated the late Jade Goody.

Big Brother legend Goody and Jeff had two sons Freddy, 19, and Strictly star Bobby, 21, before she died from cervical cancer aged 27 in 2009.

The anniversary of her death fell during filming of the BBC show, which Jeff, 46, told Metro.co.uk they marked in an ‘important and significant’ moment.

‘That was always going to be a difficult day,’ Jeff said. ‘But we really went out of our way to find a beautiful sunset.

‘Freddy felt a bit uncomfortable so we got in the sea and we just swam. The waves were really big and it was really cool.

‘We just played and it was a really important, significant moment for us.’

Freddy, pictured with older brother Bobby, is Goody’s youngest son (Picture: Dave M. Benett/Getty Images)

Jeff said Freddy felt ‘uncomfortable’ on the anniversary of his mum’s death (Picture: Studio Lambert)

In tomorrow’s episode, Freddy struggles to fight back tears as he pays tribute to his mum on the anniversary of her death in Salvador.

He heartbreakingly says according to the MailOnline that he doesn’t ‘really remember being held’ by Goody and that most of his memories of her are from old TV clips.

Freddy says: ‘I lost my mum when I was four and that was on ­Mother’s Day, which is really hard. I don’t really like showing my emotions. I don’t even speak to my dad much about my mum either. I just avoid it. I prefer to bottle it up’.

‘I don’t want to feel like I’m a burden to them. A lot of my memories that I have of my mum have come from watching a documentary, YouTube clips, newspapers, they are not my memories’. 

Goody, pictured with a newborn Freddy, died in 2009 from cervical cancer (Picture: PA)

Jeff said marking Goody’s death was a ‘significant’ moment for them (Picture: Studio Lambert)

While holding back tears, he continues: ‘I don’t really remember being held by my mum. If I had more memories of her, it would have made it a whole lot harder for me.

‘But I think I would rather that than not really remember the things that I had done with my mum. It’s just life really and I’ve kind of accepted that’.

In last week’s episode, Jeff became emotional as he spoke about being a single father to Bobby and Jeff and helping them navigate their grief.

He said: ‘I think when the boys lost their mum I really doubled down on putting all of my time, effort, attention, focus on my children.

They paid tribute to Goody on Mother’s Day in Salvador (Picture: Studio Lambert)

‘I needed to be there, helping them to navigate whatever the future was going to look like for them given their loss. And I’m still playing that role. 

‘But yeah the more Fred does for himself, I know that he can start to push on in life.’ 

Jeff also said he had ‘lost the ability to play’ and was re-learning how to have fun again with Freddy.

‘It’s hard to switch off and sometimes I think I’m being too serious,’ he said.

Just everything is my responsibility, and it has been for such a long time, because I think as a man you probably don’t rate your chances of coping, so you do what comes naturally to you which is to take all the responsibility and just focus on the situation. 

‘I have absolutely 100% lost the ability to play but I think that it’s something that I need to regain.

‘I think I need Freddy to show me really, and I need to get back to… I  need to get back to what I used to be. I’m sure that’s possible.’

Jeff also admitted that it was ‘uncomfortable’ arguing publicly with Freddy on Celebrity Race Across The World after he stormed off during a row.

On the first episode, Jeff ended up walking away after Freddy claimed that their family don’t speak openly to each other.

Jeff admitted to rowing with Freddy on ‘many’ occasions during the show (Picture: Chris Harding/Getty Images)

Speaking about butting heads on ‘many’ occassions, Jeff told Metro.co.uk: ‘It wasn’t for us to go on this TV programme and pretend otherwise.

‘It’s uncomfortable for me to share that with everybody – but it’s real life.

‘What’s really important is the fact that we were able to come together again so soon after a falling out and put it all in perspective and put it behind us.’

Jeff and Freddy are competing against fellow celebrity pairings Kelly Brook and her husband Jeremy Parisi, Scott Mills and his husband Sam Vaughan, actor Kola Bokinni and his cousin, Mary Ellen.

They are racing to reach the final checkpoint first on a journey between Belem, northern Brazil and  Frutillar, southern Chile, with limited resources and a shoestring budget.

Celebrity Race Across The World airs Wednesdays at 9pm on BBC One and iPlayer.

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