I was alone crying in my pants hearing voices – I felt the only way to stop it was to kill myself, says Roman Kemp

ROMAN Kemp has told how he couldn’t stop crying and was hearing voices in his head as he contemplated suicide.

The Capital Radio DJ believed the only way to stop how he was feeling was to kill himself.

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He admits thinking about jumping in front of a train in 2019 after coming off antidepressants and hitting rock bottom. 

Speaking on The Diary of a CEO with Steven Bartlett, Roman said: “When you’re in that zone, in an absolute spiral, everything goes into a blur.

“All I know I was in my house sat in my pants and I couldn’t stop crying.

“I couldn’t stop worrying about everything. My head was going like a whirlwind.

“I was worrying about stuff that wasn’t even logical.

“I can’t describe what my brain was telling me. Anything that could have been a problem in my head, was a problem.

“You’re thinking you look bad, you’ve not done this, your tax bill, are you ever going to do this… loads of voices.

“At that point I thought, ‘I don’t know what to do’. The only thing I could think of was, ‘OK, I’ll take my own life. That’s the only way to stop this.’

“You’re in such an intense place that your mind just implodes.”

Luckily, Roman’s mum Shirley called and kept him on the phone for an hour while she rushed to his home.

A year later in August 2020, Roman was left devastated when his best friend and colleague Joe Lyons killed himself, aged 31.

But sadly Joe kept his struggle a secret – and Roman had no idea he was suicidal.

To this day his family don’t know why he chose to take his own life.

Roman found out the heartbreaking news while live on air on his Capital FM radio show, which he, understandably, abruptly ended, unable to carry on presenting.

The tragedy sparked Roman’s ground-breaking and NTA-nominated BBC documentary Roman Kemp: Our Silent Emergency explored the mental health crisis affecting young men in the UK and revealed his own battles with depression.

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